Beauty from Ashes

He makes beauty from ashes.

Divorce is one of those things that permanently alters you.

Especially with kids.

Where there was once a single family unit, there are now 2 separate family units, each (more than likely) with 1 parent at the head.

This leaves a gaping tear across the heart of each family member. Parents can minimize this for the children if they are healthy enough and knowledgeable enough to recognize, intervene and shield in order to soften the blow. It wasn't until I finally broke the last trauma bond that I saw just how devastating my marriage was to my sense of self, and even my ability to think clearly and trust myself. For the first 10 months, I still had someones that I ran all my ideas by for approval, because I didn't trust my own decision making- I had been conditioned not to.

I was a shell of the person I once had the potential to be. I hit rock bottom twice, in early and mid 2020. In early June, I was alone. I felt devalued, dirty, rejected, discarded, betrayed worthless and unworthy. Worst of all, I felt completely alone. I had been called awful things including adulteress, whore, crazy, liar, and other things.

BUT GOD intervened.

He sent one of His servants to me. Her spirit spoke to mine. In the few short weeks that followed, God did an amazing work in me that continues to this day. The young women, who taught me repeatedly, and encouraged me relentlessly in regards to the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, never gave up on me. Part of the Atonement was when He took upon himself in iniquities and infirmities of the world so that He might comfort us in our darkest moments. He knows what it's like, no matter what it is.

When you give your heart and healing over to God, He will heal your wounded soul and take the shattered pieces and make a new and beautiful creation. We must do the real reflection necessary to heal and see the parts of ourselves that are in need of change, so that we can ask for divine help with those changes. This is how He can take all things and work them to the good of His people, and make beauty from ashes, and we can become a new creation in Christ.

He did it for me. He can do it for you.