Solitude- a season of not attaching

I love having “a person,” let’s start there.

I love love, and the idea or love and the expression of love.

I have come to realize some things

#1- I still have a lot of pain in regards to relationships. pain from former chronic issues and from more acute trauma. it is what it is, it’s mine. I need to work on it. #2- it’s my kids’ turn to have their mom’s full attention

#3- I need more single friends, both men and women, within and outside of my faith. I do have need to learn how to develop friendships with men. and not the kind of friendships that are hoping for more.

#4- I don’t want to need anyone ever again. That came through loud and clear with my last lesson. “The last time you needed someone ended in disaster. it almost destroyed you.” Never again. #5- I heard someone recently describe the difference between connection and attachment, let’s just say, I’m learning where to focus my intention and attention moving forward. #6- I am full and whole and complete without “a person” I’m still raw. My wings are still wet, coming out of my cocoon. #7- I am grateful for the men that I have dated, and especially those who have stuck around to be my friends after that part of the relationship was complete. each of them taught me a different lesson and has been a blessing to me in my journey.

#8- I’m taking a break from dating. again. yes. Again. I know.